This is just a very small outline of my story. I’ve been a heroin addict for 15 years. I’ve been to 3 different rehabs and I’ve been arrested 4 times I have been trying to do it on my own so many times that I’ve lost count. I’ve used every drug that you can possibly think of. The things that I have done just to get my drug of choice is really shocking and unbelievable but I didn’t care about the consequences or the people I affected in the process as long as I got what I wanted, who cares? Heroin really took over my life and unfortunately a lot of other people’s lives as well. Especially my children and parents lives. I put them through so much and for so long that it’s only by the grace and love of GOD that they still want me in there life. I’ve been lied to, used physically, emotionally before, I’ve been in such abusive relationships that I even thought that that’s all I’m good for and that I’m a piece of rubbish and that there’s no hope for me.im worthless.
Before I came to Indawo, I was really bad. I had nowhere to go; my family had had enough so I couldn’t go home. I wasn’t allowed to see my children. I had nowhere to go; I was at serious breaking point. I was lower than rock bottom. I was about to end my life. I just couldn’t anymore…I didn’t know which way or how anymore because I had tried everything, well I thought I had tried everything.
When I starting attending Indawo, my attitude towards the programme was like any other addicts reaction would be… when I met with Rev Ray and he told me that I would be attending Indawo every day and I would be involved in every activity concerning the centre and church and that I would be under 24/7 watch and wasn’t allowed to leave or be alone. At first my thoughts were ‘this is messed up, I hate being told what to do and to be pushed in a corner’ but I said I will give a chance, I’ve tried everything, maybe this is what I need. So I gave it a chance and I don’t regret it for a second. These people are amazing, they appreciate, respect and accepted me for me and never labelled me. The support that I’ve received and still busy receiving is indescribable. I’m a complete stranger, I don’t attend the church, I don’t even come from this town but yet they were the only ones willing to help me . They make me feel like any other person. They gave me a sense of belonging. And it’s not like some other places where they sugar-coat everything, no, they find out the core of the problem and deal with it and help you to discover your true identity and teach you about your amazing God and that anything is possible with Him in your life. Sense I’ve been here I’m a lot happier, my relationships with my family has gotten better. I have such an amazing support system and I know that I can rely on them with any situation or problem. They are always willing to help with anything that is needed no matter how small or big it is. It doesn’t t matter that you are, what use done or where you come from, they will help you. And the best part of it is, they don’t look down on you or judge you.
I honestly couldn’t have done this without them and of course God. And trust me, this fight I’m busy fighting is a difficult battle but I’ve handed it over to God and I’m finally at peace with myself and my past. I learned something at a woman’s retreat that I attended through the centre and that is “your gift from God is life, what you do with it is your gift to God”. This really stuck with me and it still does, I will never forget it. I’ve seen and realised a lot since I’ve been here and I’ve wouldn’t of realised it if I didn’t give Indawo a chance. This might sound cliché but “it’s a life changing experience”.
I just want to say THANK YOU so much to all the Members of INDAWO and of the Methodist church for saving my life and for excepting me for who I am and for going to all the length to help me and better me as person and my life so that I could enjoy the gift of life the right way so that I could be an inspiration and role model to my wonderful children and be able to give back to those who are in the same situation as me.
I could tell you really shocking things about my addiction but I’ll need more space and time. So this is my story and I must say there is HOPE and a light at the end of the tunnel. I really can’t express enough how this place helped and changed me for the better.
No matter what your situation is, Indawo is there for you, I’m living proof of it.
Thank you so much